The show must go on!!!

What an exhausting week, I finally finish painting the back drop for the children’s concert this coming Saturday, it looks great! *pats myself on the back*. Not easy being the art director… hehehe. I can rest a bit now, the costumes are ready and sent to the parents, the props are all done. Now all we have to do is decorate the stage and wait for the big day!

My class is putting on 3 performances, the girls are doing the classical dance by Offenbach - Cancan, they know their steps very well. Their costumes are so pretty I designed it myself … hehe. The girls are so excited and they just love to dance.

The boys are putting on a circus act the “Leopard Tamer” ..heheheh its so cute and funny. I couldn’t find the material with tiger stripes, my aunty went to Australia for a holiday and she manage to find some nice material but it had leopard spots so I just have to make use of that! The boys are also performing a dance I chose the Madagascar song the one by Sacha Baron Cohen – “I Like To Move It”. They can really drive me up the wall every time we do the rehearsals they don’t care if it’s what they should be doing or not…heheh they are just having fun …heheh. Oh well they look great anyway besides they know their steps well, they are just fooling around I guess.

Junior darthVadai’s concert is also this coming Saturday …heheh Senior darthvadai must be very excited to watch the performance. Heheh

I’m pretty excited for this Saturday’s performance I’m sure the children will put on a great show for their parents, I'm so proud of them. After the concert, it’s 1 week holiday for me.. yippeeeeeeeeee!!!! Don’t know what to do and no where to go :o( looks like I will be online most of the time... heheh.

Heheh my Jiwang days!

I use to write poems and songs as a hobby when I was a teenager. I ran through my book earlier this morning and I thought I share something I wrote about 8 years ago. I think this was the only one I wrote about love, the others were more about death…heheheh you know la those days I wanted to be a rock star…hehheh so have to be brutal sikit! Anyway I’m not any good at writing. Oh well enjoy.

Pain

It’s so hard not being close to you,
Knowing that you feel the same way too,
What we had is a beautiful thing,
Even, if it lasted for a while.

I don’t know how to recover,
You are my love, my heart and my soul,
Hurt myself for not saying I love you,
Lost my faith the moment I lost you.

It’s hard but pain will tell me I’m alive,
My world is dying since you were gone,
It’s making me weak but I must go on,
It hurts so bad but that’s life for some.

You’re everything I have ever hoped for,
You are the cause of my broken heart,
My shattered heart can’t mend by it self,
You are the only cure I will ever need.

It’s hard for me to let go what I’m feeling inside,
Knowing that I loved you with all my heart,
Can’t get over my precious love,
You’re always in my thoughts and in my dreams.

It’s hard but pain will tell me I’m alive,
My heart is dying since you been gone,
It’s making me weak but I must be strong,
It does hurts but its not the life I want.

Can’t seem to close my eyes anymore,
You are all I see even in the dark,
Tears still flow down my eyes,
Each time I start to miss you.

Here I am standing in my shadow,
The cut so deep it hurts to remember.
Why do I still feel this pain,
I wish I didn’t know you,
I wish I didn’t love you.

Some people are just RUDE!!!

Last week I accompanied Azie to a slimming centre, she just wanted to enquire about the advertisement she saw in the news paper. I warn her that they might persuade her to enroll herself in their slimming treatment. They offered a free consultation and Azie was just curious and wanted to enquire some infomation.

The package was for RM1000, after their explanation Azie was tempted to take up the offer but they just kept on adding and adding everything, to me it only seems like they wanted her money because she seems like and easy target. I mean RM3,500 is a lot of money. The consultant kept on pushing her into signing up and in the end they manage to get her to sign up and got a RM 50 deposit and issued a receipt. Azie wanted to go ahead with it, I gave my opinion and advise her to think about it first. The next day Azie tells me that her mother does not approve of her going ahead with the treatment because it was too expensive and she should put her money to good use instead of spending all of it on this, she then decides not to go ahead with the treatments. As a friend I respected her decision and gave her some moral support that she can overcome her weight problem by eating the right food and exercising right. I even agreed to go on a diet with her so that we can track our progress and give each other support.

Yesterday Azie received a call from the slimming centre asking her to bank in the money a balance of RM 3,450. Anyway she wanted to tell them personally that she is not interested and wanted to collect the deposit back.

Today after work I took her to that place and we explained that she decided not to go for the treatment. They claim that the deposit is non refundable. I was a bit annoyed and told them that, that was a deposit and not a payment to the package by right they should refund her back the deposit. They refused and after making my point clear the staff said that she can purchase the product and they will deduct the RM50, what’s crazy is their products is worth over RM200. they also gave another suggestion to go for a trial treatment for RM150 which she has to add in another RM100.

Anyway Azie kind of decided to just let it be and burn the RM50 since they didn’t want to give it back. The staff called the consultant that spoke to Azie before, she tried to persuade Azie to go ahead with the treatment and pay the balance RM3,450. I talk to Azie and told her to just say “NO” if is she is not interested. The consultant then asked to pass the phone to me… I was like “ Why she want to talk to me for?” anyway I took the call and explain the situation. The consultant started firing at me and she was very rude. She accused me of making decisions for Azie, she told me to mind my own business and don’t interfere. I was stunned … I mean she has no right to talk to me that way, I got pissed off and slammed the phone. I told the colleague that her consultant is very rude and she has not right to say things like that. Why can’t they just accept Azie decision and stop forcing her to pay. I told them if this is how they do business then I have no choice but to complain about how badly we were treated. I asked for the name and contact number of he manager, they refused to give the information, they said “you have to look for it your self”.

I felt so annoyed and embarrassed. I mean is it wrong to change your mind on something and collecting the deposit? Even if the money is not refundable that’s fine as long as she could exchange it for something else, given that option is better then nothing. What I’m so pissed off is she was so rude and they keep forcing Azie to pay the full amount. I was so offended that I made a big issue out of it, I hope I didn’t embarrass Azie, I just feel that those people were not professional and they shouldn’t treat their customers like that, what a bad impression we got from that experience.

I was angry for a while, but not anymore. I don’t care about them.. I just care about my friend. We learn something today, “Don’t be conned by a good offer it’s all a scam and Don’t put a deposit unless it’s refundable”. Ehheh.

It’s a Monday.. what do you expect???

I feel like last week just went pass me, I have no recollection if I actually made full use of my weekend. All I remember is I was sick and everyone else was sick too. Woke up this morning wishing it was still Sunday.

I’ve always been prone to having stomach problems, migraines, flu, cough, throat infections, fevers and chicken pox!!! I must be 1 of the rare people in this world to get chicken pox 3 times…hehehe!. So far it’s been 6 years since I had my last chicken pox. *touch wood* hope I never get it again! I don’t look nice with spots!

I hate being siiiiiiiiiiick!!!, I’m down with the flu and I hate it!. I feel so lazy and tired, I have no mood to wake up and go to work. Luckily the day went by fast and surprisingly because im not well my students were on their best behaviors, they were like little angles…heheh. I had to go to EON bank and make my car payment, I was driving with no aircon and it rained. The fog blinded my vision, oh well I arrived safely but unfortunately I didn’t have an umbrella and got caught in the rain. I had to cancel my therapy session because I’m not 100% ok, plus I don’t want Za to catch my flu.

Been feeling down the whole day, the only thing that made me smile was the a special SMS from a special someone of cause… so sweet!.

Oh! thanks for the “Good morning” SMS darthvadai, my phone is giving problems la, I couldn’t send out any SMS, some I’ve sent but every one says they never received it.. so I don’t know la if my phone is working or not.

Anyway, I went online and no one I know was there, not even Cleo :o(
off to bed I guess…

Adios…

Helplesss

I don’t know how my Saturday night is going to end but it started pretty bad… my tyre is stabbed again. I don’t know who would have done such a thing, this is the second time something like this has happen and I’m pretty pissed.

I have so many things to do today and now I’m stuck at home. I need to go to the bank, fetch my mother from my auntie’s place, pick up Annie’s laptop at the computer shop, buy groceries at Giant and I have to attend my student’s BBQ birthday party.

I’m suppose to go out with Azie at 1.45pm today but lucky she is picking me up. She is kind enough to help me fetch my mother, drop me at the LRT if I want to go out in the evening and all but still I can’t ask her to detour to so many places. I SMS Kevin to help me change the tire but he is probably still asleep now. I hope he is free today, I really need his help. I’m think I know how to change a tyre but I’m not too sure if it’s correct so I better not try it.

I’m suppose to go buy breakfast but looks like I have to fast today :o/ that sucks! I’m hungry!!!

Show me the Moneyyyyyyyyy!!!

Poor blog… I haven’t had time to update it, not my fault really … it was all TMnet’s fault! I miss 1 payment and they freeze my account… what a pain in the ass. Plus I been busy doing my work I haven’t had time to even log on to the internet or check my emails. Oh well it’s not so bad now.. I have some free time.

It’s not turning out to be a good month for me… I’m stressed out, not only because of work but my financial planning.. hehhehe. I forgot I didn’t pay my car loan yet, I thought I had extra cash. Unfortunately I don’t!. I gave my sister RM250 that’s for the SK2 mask and her daughter’s birthday ang pow money. I accidentally went shopping and spent about RM350 on clothes, shoes, dog food for me Uskah!, RM 200 for my mom’s birthday present. RM 300 for “Kutu” shares…hehehe. All my bills came to RM300 (phone, electric, water, internet and newspaper). I forgot about the car payment that’s another RM585, I only spend RM250 when Cleo was here amazing isn’t it very little compared to the last time! How did it all come to this??? Oh my god!!

Anyway I’m dead brokeeeeeeeeee!! Looks like I’m going to have grass for the next 2 weeks hehehe or maybe I’ll rob a bank tomorrow… yes I think I’ll do that!

Crazy Marathon Weekend!

I miss Cleo already heheheh. I had such a great time when she was here. It was a Buzy Buzy weekend!

Saturday!
Started at 10.00am ~ picked up Memek at the hotel, left my stuff in her room and brought her all the way to Melawati to eat breakfast, well it was more like breakfast and lunch by the time we got there. Anyway, Azie, Cleo and I ate vegetarian banana leaf rice and The-O-Limau-Ice… hehehe that’s Memek’s favorite. It was Yummy!!

11.30am ~ we went to the Branded Outlet Store and did some shopping there. Memek bought some nice sexy panties… she should have bought more if you asked me… anyway no worries I can always get them for her if she wants more! Azie and I bought some sexy panties too. Sadly no one wanted the thong with the cute little red ribbon and bell…ehhehe it was kinky..

1.00pm~ hehe had to pick up my mum to buy her 4D numbers heheh… Memek fell asleep in the car. We stopped at Cotton World, and Cleo bought some blouse too. I hope she is happy with it, it looked nice on her. After sending my mother back to my aunties apartment we made a stop at my place to see Oscar the wonder dog…hehehhe.

Around 1.45pm~ Azie dropped Cleo and I at the LRT station.. we headed back to Bukit Bintang. And I checked into my hotel at almost 3pm. I took a shower and had a short nap then went out to meet Cleo again to eat sushi at 4pm. We had a nice early dinner, the sushi was yummy, we had a good chat, it was very relaxing.

We went back to out rooms after that and got ourselves ready to go out again. We had a great time at Secret Place, got some nice memorable pictures too. Of cause every picture had darthvadai in it or parts of his body in it…heheheh so funny. As usual we ended our evening lepaking and having supper at Lotus. I was so tired all I could think of is… “sleep!”. Recky was so nice enough to drop me and Cleo back to Bukit Bintang. *smooch*. I took a shower and just went I was about to go to dream land Mike called me at 3.30am.. haiyooo he sounded so lively and I was half dead. I don’t even remember what he said.. heheheh. Sorry bro!! I was too tired la!!!

Sunday!
I checked out the hotel at 11am and went back home, took my mother to giant and after that I fell asleep and woke up late in the afternoon, watched a movie and got ready to go out for another marathon night of KARAOKE!!!! Heheheh. I had so much fun. We all sounded equally bad that night…heheh.

Poor Chris not well aww kesian… *hugz* hope she feels better now. Pikachu how ever sounded great.. hahah. Darthvadai doesn’t need a mic as usual.. his voice louder then the sound system even at full blast!, Recky a.k.a. “ShowBoi” did some nice gelek gelek dance…hahah got that on pic too…hahahha.

What a night to remember! ... Adios!!

The Pressure is ON!!

It’s only Tuesday and I’m so worn out already. I feel so tired, I have so many things to do and I feel I haven’t done anything yet!

The school Annual concert is in October I’m in charge of the props and the backdrop, I have to do draw and paint it. I have to do the master taping for all the songs and I have to get it ready by tomorrow. I need to finish the costumes by Friday. I have 12 students and the tailor only prepared 4 so far.

I decided to buy the sewing machine, thanks to Azie and her boyfriend of cause. They were so kind enough to swipe it for me first. We went to 3 places to look for a reasonably priced sewing machine. I started sewing that night it self and I finished all the blouses for the girls costume. I’m still waiting for the skirts and the jumpsuits to be ready. Hopefully it will be ready on Friday. I have to take some time off from therapy maybe do 2 hours instead of 3. I need to stay back after school to draw and paint the backdrop. I only have less then 2 weeks to complete it.

I hope to live through this week.. got a busy weekend ahead too ehhehe. Memek CUMming…ehehh. I'm really in need of some hugs and smooches not from Cleo of coz...ehheeh ... smooch energy level very low!! hehehe...

Weekend activity...heheh!

I’m a very sick person… sicker then usual of cause…heheheh. I’m down with the flu and I feel so lazy and tired, all I want to do is stay in bed.

Yesterday I met Annie again to pick up her CPU at the shop. She came at 9.30am with her sister-in-law and nieces. We went for breakfast opposite computer shop, the usual thing happen the two little girls were snatching almost everything and caused a scene most of the food they had landed on the floor, including the plates and glass…heheheh they received some smacking too…heheh. After collecting the CPU, Annie had to send her son to work, so she gave me a lift home and went on her way.

It was 11am and still early for my next appointment with Ozy so I decided to clean my room. I found a box of original car models. So I decided to display it in my room.. it look so cool. My big brother was suppose to take it to his JB house and display it there but he forgot to take it so I now have :- one Lamborghini SE, one Porsche Boxter, one Bugatti 3B 110, one Porsche 911 Carrera Cabriolet, one Ferrari 550 Maranello, four F1 Renault and two F1 Ferrari cars… ehheh cool eh!! Hehehe wanna buy??? Heheheh

I was sneezing so much I had to stop cleaning my room and took a short nap. I woke up at 1.15pm and got dressed and waited for Ozy to come. I companied her to open a bank account at RHB. Then she followed me to the bridal decoration shop to buy some stuff for my school concert. I was so tired and I felt a fever coming on, but we had to stop for lunch at The Big Plate because it was very late and we were hungry. Ozy had other appointments to meet our ex-classmates. I couldn’t take it anymore so she sent me home.

I had a call from my boss to go over her place and sign some papers… man can’t I sleep in peace??? Anyway I went there and got it over with.. came home and slept throughout the evening and woke up at 8.30pm, then I remembered I had to finish the girls costumes so I stayed up until 2am sewing!!!

This morning!! I was woken up at 11am by the most annoying sound “ Assskerrrr…. Askerrrrrrrrr” it was Ozy calling Oscar. I tot I was dreaming anyway I went to check and it was her!. She updated me all about her meeting with our ex-classmates while I was brushing my teeth and washing my face. They were organizing a tracking expedition every Saturday starting next week, sounds interesting but I can’t go because I have an appointment with Cleo. I got dressed and we went for breakfast. Ozy is quite interested to take up bakery so I brought her to a place where they actually give classes. I went home at 1pm gave Oscar a bath and groomed him a bit, took a shower and slept for almost 4 hours... heheh.

I feel a bit better now though, not sure if I might go out again later to buy the sewing machine, I don’t have enough cash to pay for it right now. Ozy offered to swipe it for me and I can pay her monthly…. I’m still undecided actually, it’s a very generous offer not sure if I should take it or not?…hmmm.

Until my next entry… adios!!

If I Knew...

My uncle email me this poem, I think it's so meaningful and beautiful. I want to share it with everyone.


If I knew it would be the last time,
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly,
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time,
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss,
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute,
to stop and say "I love you",
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow,
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance,
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day,
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance,
to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all! I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you,
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance,
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day.

That you didn't take that extra time,
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss,
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them,
and that you'll always hold them dear.

Take time to say "I'm sorry," "Please forgive me,"
"Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today

What would you do if you had 3 wishes? Hmmm >:o)

Well I would be called a stupid idiot if I didn’t wish for “More wishes!”, “Lots of money” and “Own my own island!” ehheheh.

Think what I can do with more wishes…hehheh. I could wish for the impossible! Yeah…wish I didn’t have anymore fears, wish for world peace, put an end to poverty, get rid off all the nuclear weapons, a clean environment, no more pollutions.. Yeah! and lots more even.

Think what I can do with all that money… I can go shopping and spend all my friends anything they want, buy a hotel, buy a night club… heheh, travel round the world even . Buy each of my family member a fully furnish house including 2 cars and give them a million dollars each. Donate money to the poor, homeless and all the charity organizations.

I don’t want immortality… what if the world ends and I’ll be the only one left??? Ewww scary la!, I don’t want to wish for happiness or love because I think I can gain that on my own… no need to waste on my precious wishes.

Own an island? Ehhehe well I always wanted one of those ..hehheh. I haven’t decided which island yet though…ehhehe. I’ll build a mansion or maybe castle on it…hehehe.
A girl can dream cant she!.

Man’s Best FRIEND!.

When my family was still living in Johor we had 9 dogs, my father loves them and my mother hated them…ehheh . I was very young when I had my first pet dog and his name was Blackie obviously it was black in colour. Anyway he died of old age. My big brother Collin’s dog was called Mourover… he got run over and died, Clifton’s *my 2nd brother* dog is called Burie… in the end it died and was buried heheh. It could be because Clifton pulled out all his whiskers. My sister Debra’s dog Spot was lost it wondered off somewhere and was never found. The rest belong to my father I don’t know their names all in dog heaven I think.

When we moved to Malacca, Clifton found a puppy inside a box left by the seaside. The puppy was only a few days old. My brother felt pity for it so he brought it home and named him Bonnie. The 1st month was the hardest because we didn’t know how to feed it… my father spoon fed him until he was old enough to drink on his own. Bonnie grew into a very cute dog.. hhehe he was so clean and smelled like lemons.. heheheh. I use to give him a bath every alternate days…he love taking baths. He only goes out if we take him out.. other then that he stays at home all day… Once in a while he escapes when the gates are not closed properly. My brothers, sister and I use to chase after him.. the only way to catch him if we offer him sweets or ice cream.


It was a sad day for my family when Bonnie died. The cause of his death was poison, he had internal bleeding.. I remember crying so much, I was so angry. It’s been so many years and we never had another pet after Bonnie. Of cause there was the come and go pets that never really belonged to me.

I had other pets besides dogs!. I had a big fat orange cat called Garfield he sucked on his mother’s tit for 1 year… Greedy cat!! After that he ran off and lived with someone else *mumbles* ungrateful bastard!!. My sister gave me a fighting fish, it was so colourful and pretty. I use to love looking at it… until my nephew fed it goreng pisang the next day I found it dead, I wanted to return the favor and kill my sisters only son but then I thought to myself “who’s going to clean up the mess?” so I just said my last goodbye and flushed the fish down the toilet… Then there was the hamster, Azie gave it to me on my 24th birthday I think, it grew so fat and after 1 year it died :o( they were so cute.

Last year I took in a stray puppy it reminded me of Bonnie actually, unfortunately the puppy ran under my car as I was coming out of the drive way. I took it to the vet and had no choice but to put it to sleep.

1 year has past and my sister gave me her dog to look after, she was worried for its safety because the children in her neighborhood keep throwing stones at him. They named him “Oscar” he is a mixture of Spitz and Golden Retriever. He is so cute, irritating, loveable and troublesome all at once…heheheh. Oscar is a special dog… he is born with 2 extra toes *one on each leg* it looks like a cat’s claw! And he only have one testicle…heheh, the colour of his furr is white, cream and brown. When he was a puppy you can actually see the number 3 and 5 on his back, it’s still there but not as clear as before. Anyway he is referred as my Bodyguard, my son, darling, baby, boiii…. but I like him more as my pet.. hehehe. I’m never lonely and I always feel safe when I’m home alone thanks to my usssssssskah!!! I grown so attached to him that I’ve become so over protective, I keep him safe and I don’t want anything to happen bad to him… he is so precious to me.

Well that’s all for my pet history.. until my next blog… adios!