Friday, March 24, 2006

Funny Email!

If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days youwould have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup ofcoffee.
(Hardly seems worth it.)

If you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of anatomic bomb.
(Now that's more like it!)

The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumpsout to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.
(O.M.G.!)

A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes.
(In my next life, I want to be a pig.)

A cockroach will live nine days without its headbefore it starves to death.
(I'm still not over the pig.)

Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour
(Don't try this at home,maybe at work)

The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its headis attached to its body. The female initiates sex byripping the male's head off.
(Honey, I'm home. What the....?!")

The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's likea human jumping the length of a football field.
(30 minutes..lucky pig! Can you imagine?)

The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds.
(What could be so tasty on the bottom of a pond?)

Some lions mate over 50 times a day.
(I still want to be a pig in my next life...qualityover quantity)

Butterflies taste with their feet.
(Something I always wanted to know.)

The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue.
(Hmmmmmm......)

Right-handed people live, on average, nine yearslonger than left-handed people.
(If you're ambidextrous, do you split the difference?)

Elephants are the only animal s that cannot jump.
(okay, so that would be a good thing)

A cat's urine glows under a black light.
(I wonder who was paid to figure that out?)

An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.
(I know some people like that.)

Starfish have no brains.
(I know some people like that too.)

Polar bears are left-handed.
(If they switch, they'll live a lot longer)

Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sexfor pleasure.
(What about that pig??)

heheheh... so funny... go pig go!!!!

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

The real me?... heh..

I’ve always believed in my principals and virtues. Sadly I’ve created a life that only I can understand and blind to others. I’ve disappointed myself in every way and I feel like a total failure sometimes. I’ve lost all interest to continue this life.. part of me has already given up on almost everything I strongly believe in. I don’t think I can live up to it anymore… I don’t wish for my life to end or anything like that… I just want something in my life to change and worth living for…

The Emotional part of me says
“Just Leave!!!”
Lately I feel like letting everything go and running far away and leaving everything behind…. If only I’m brave, heartless and stupid enough to do that.

My conscious says
“ It’s going to be ok!”, “Be strong”, “life goes on”.
It would be irresponsible of me to leave my work, commitment, family. Don’t disappoint your family, friends and love ones. Don’t give up hope, Keep your promises, don’t neglect your responsibilities, do the right thing, don’t throw your life away, don’t take people for granted and stay away from the light… hmm.. I’m sure my conscious will say that to me if I ever have a near death experience.

The Angry part of me says…
Wants to punch the wall and let out all my anger, cut off my hair, I feel like I just need to blame and hate someone… I need to let out the rage in me and break something with my bare hands…. but then I’m scared of pain so that’s probably the last thing I would do then to inflict pain onto myself.

The disappointed part me…
Just can’t understand and don’t know what to expect of tomorrow. Too many questions in my mind, not ready to accept the answers and a bit afraid of changes. I want things to be ok… I need assurance… that’s something I never had before but would be nice to have. Would like my mind read once in a while too …

The sensitive part of me….
Just wants to cry and keep on crying non stop till my eyes pop out or something.. I don’t know.
I’ve been crying… not continuously but at times when I’m alone. Tears can tell their own story… you don’t need words to explain.. it’s understood. Sometimes it’s necessary to just pour your heart out… I want to but I have no shoulder to cry on. I guess people don’t like getting their shoulders wet now days…heh!

What do I have to say for all this?
I don’t want to be sad anymore, I don’t want to cry because I’m sad.. but would like to cry because I’m happy, I want to be cured from this pain I feel in my heart, I want to love and be loved…
I want my WORLD back.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

News

I’m actually restless, at times I feel like I practically did nothing at all other then work. Maybe it’s because I wake up extra early now days and drive to work 25 minutes earlier then my usual time so that I won’t get caught in the rush hour traffic jam and be late for work or maybe it’s because of all the nonsense that’s been going on that’s freaking the neighbors out.

I haven’t been giving therapy due to my illness and other reasons. I’ve been down with the flu for the past 2 weeks… went to see the doctor 3 times, been taking medications but I’m still having the sniffles. The doctor even suggested I go for further check ups, she is concern I could have been infected with the bird flu at first.. well turns out it’s not… it’s just a bad case of the common flu…. A bit extreme I would say.

My sister and her children came over to spend their school holidays in KL but they went back to Malacca on Thursday. It was nice having them here at least it helped to distract my mind a bit. Luckily none of them caught the flu from me.

After 2 weeks I finally went back to Phillip Wain to work out… didn’t join any of my regular classes, I just did some light exercises and rested most of the time and waited for Azie to finish the aerobic classes.

My neighbor’s house got robbed on Tuesday 4 am. The thieves manage to take 2 gold rings and an expensive watch only. I remember Oscar barking that morning in my kitchen, the barking woke my neighbor up and at the same time his son had returned home from his night shift… that’s when they noticed the kitchen grill was open and one of the room messed up. The funny thing is 2 weeks ago his sister’s house got robbed in the afternoon they came in from the front gate even. His sister lives on the same street the 4th house from mine. The neighbors noticed Oscar was barking a lot that day but they didn’t go out to see what all the noise was about. Unfortunately she lost a lot of money and electrical stuff.

I changed the locks on my gate and keep Oscar close. Now each time he barks at night I’ll let him out of the room and let him roam around the house to make sure everything is alright, my neighbor would wake up and check his house each time Oscar barks early in the morning. They are planning to get a dog to guard their house too.

I feel safe knowing that Oscar is around to protect my mother and I, and warn us if there is any strangers around. He is the only one that can sense if there is danger and at the same time I’m scared he will be harmed so I keep him inside the house so that he will be safe too.

Friday, March 10, 2006

Something i read in my email... sweet

~ At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
~ At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
~ The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want tobe just like you.
~ A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don'tlike you.
~ Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
~ You mean the world to someone.
~ If not for you, someone may not be living.
~ Someone thinks you are special and unique.
~ Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
~ When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes fromit.
~ When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look:you most likely turned your back on the world.
~ When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, youprobably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner orlater, you will get it.
~ Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about therude remarks.
~ Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
~ If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

" They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them. "
AHHHHHH SOOOOOO TRUEEEE!!!!

Sunday, March 05, 2006

must i always have a title for a new blog entry?

I walked pass Petaling street yesterday and I cant help noticing the beautiful fresh flowers they were selling. The faint aroma and the lovely colours is just so attractive. I was tempted to buy some for the house in the end I didn’t buy any because it would only last a few days. It’s sad that beauty doesn’t last forever just like everything else, nothing last forever actually…. Life, love, friends, pet, money, hair colour… etc.. etc.

If everyone lived forever then this world will just be over populated. We can’t all live an immortal life, with what goes on in this world these days I don’t think people want to live that long anyway. We don’t know what fate has installed for us, or know the real reason why we are here in the first place. I don’t know.. I often feel that there is more to it.. like we have a purpose to fulfill to earn our place here or something like that.

I had a dream on Tuesday… it was an odd dream. I saw myself in a boat and in front of me I saw what seem to me was the crucifix, I used the oars to paddle the boat but it didn’t move at all. I swam to it and it sank in the water. I thought to myself that I’m not a good swimmer and if I fallow it down I would drown… but if I swim to my boat I would end up no where. So in my dream I closed my eyes and I dived in the water because I felt the need to follow it, when I opened my eyes I was in a chapel with nothing but statues and the largest crucifix I had ever seen. I remember feeling like a thousand knifes stabbed in my heart I felt a pain I have never felt before.. I don’t know if I can even describe that feeling. I know the pain was too much to bare that I fell to the ground on my knees and crawling in the chapel. The next thing I remembered from that dream is me standing up with tears in my eyes not because I felt the pain but I was amazed by the magnificence of witnessing such a place.

I told my mother the dream when I woke up… the first thing she said was “see god telling you to go to church today Ash Wednesday” hehe… well it will make her happy if I did…but I feel that, that is not the reason.

Hmm.. this is what it may mean :~
Water, fire/light, air and earth is all signs of life. In this case water is life.
The boat is my option or alternative and diving in the water is my choice.
The chapel is symbol of enlightment.
The crucifix is symbols of sincerity, pureness, believes and love.
The pain that I felt in my heart is simply just obstacles in life, it may hurt at times but it doesn’t mean it’s the end of all things.
Tears related to emotions.

Add all that up…. I might just know what my dream really means or my mother could be right… I should consider going back to church!..... NOT!!

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Match making relatives... Strikes back!

*smack smack smack* How mean of me to neglect my blog… tsk tsk tsk. Well actually I decided to take a break from it… partly being lazy, too busy, nothing to write about.. bla bla bla.. so and so lah!

If any one noticed my blog past 2 months I’ve been to emotional since I turned 28…hehe the pressure from people and relatives always asking me when am I going to get married?.. who am I seeing lately? Left and right I hear relatives say “oOo your sister is 33 years old and she already have 4 children and another 1 on the way.. when are you going to have some of your own?. Grrrr I mean is that all there is to life cant they think of something else to say??... every time we meet I hear the same thing… its annoying!

One thing about me is that I don’t want to think of tomorrow when I still have to deal with what’s going on now. Yes, the clock is ticking and somehow the days seem to be passing a bit too fast these days… it’s already March! I realize that I’m not getting any younger. There are so many things I want to do and experience but I’m just not that fortunate.

Who says I have don’t have children?? Hey I have 12 children ok!!! Although they don’t belong to me but my life is filled with challenges. Yes, I should be married but then I’m not… it’s not like I don’t want to… well actually I’m not sure if I really want to or not! hmmm I’ll decide when the time actually comes. Of coz I want children of my own and I want to give them the best life can offer. The thing is I’m too comfortable with my life now and I’m just not ready to give it all up and settle down and I’m certainly not financially stable to raise children of my own. I think if you are going to commit to someone and spend the rest of you life with the particular person… it better be with the right one! I simply don’t understand the concept of match making at all and I surely wouldn’t settle down with anyone I am not in love with. I think I’ve made my point clear to them… Well I hope my relatives get the picture.

Times have changed.. it’s not like 100 years ago when parents would marry their daughters off at the age of 15.. or 50 years ago when they would consider a 28 year old women is too old and a burden to their parents if she is not married… haiyaaa… it’s the new millennium lah!… give us a break lah!!