When the Sun Smiles :)

When the Sun smiles,
I feel it for miles.
my heart stop beating for awhile,
it makes every moment worthwhile.

When the Sun smiles.. I share the joy,
happy like a child with a new toy,
takes me back to memories of you as a schoolboy,
back when we really knew how to enjoy.

When the Sun smiles... it warms my heart,
it's your light that I see in my art,
a sight I look forward to see before I start,
sadness is what I feel each time you depart.

Even now when the Sun smiles.. I feel the same,
same warm feelings from that old flame,
can never forget such a unique name,
and still my heart is here for you to claim.

Each time the Sun smiles.. I see right through you,
there is hurt in your heart that no one can undo,
just like the Sun you are unreachable too,
but you will continue to shine and so I will smile back at you.

Feelings unchanged.

I often wonder why we have hidden feelings,
are we scared to face the secrets that we are keeping?
Some say the truth will reveal everything,
but only time permits such things from happening.

I fear time will make our memories fade,
but that's not what I am afraid.
I fear I've lost myself in this game I played,
I gamble my life for love I can not trade.

All my thoughts are of you,
dare I say "I can never stop loving you",
although these arms have never once held you,
but I can still feel you and will never forget you.

My feelings for you has always been this way,
ever since I layed eyes on you the first day,
you are perfect to me in everyway,
I cherish our time together, every moment of every day.

Don't be afraid I will never hurt you,
for I have always respected your virtues,
I know your heart cause I can see right through,
your friendship alone is what I value.

Am I really here..

Here I am sharing my life story in a poem,
I made mistakes but I've learned from them,
I don't want to be perfect so please don't condemn,
I choose to be different.. like a rare gem.

Why am I here and who am I? .. I often ask,
am I here to complete an important task?,
must I go through this life wearing a mask?
or will I find the answers.. if only I am brave enough to ask?

I see someone in the mirror.. but it's not me,
I think it's someone I wish to be,
it's always someone else but never me,
maybe she is someone you would rather see.

My mind does not rest anymore,
and my life has become such a bore,
I may not be who I was before,
maybe that's why I feel my presents is not needed anymore.

If there was a pill I could take,
that can cure this heart ache,
and help me sleep till day break,
I would take it, so that I don't have to be awake.

Maybe tomorrow will be a better day,
maybe it's because it's my birthday!,
but it doesn't matter anyway,
It's just another Friday....