A Halloween Night out!!

I had a great time out last night with Recky, Chris and Iwor. It’s so nice to go out and enjoy life with close friends. Beach club celebrated Halloween’s day.. the decoration was so nice.. I was very fascinated by it, and the waiters were so fascinated with their costumes and walking about parading themselves.. they forgot to serve the customers.. heheh .

I want to say Welcome to our new friend Iwor… hope you had a great time too… hope he will continue to join us on our regular outing… must take this guy go Karaoke la..hehe he never karaoke before! Once he experience it…heheh don’t think he will ever want to again…hahah at least not with us la..heheh

Darthvadai ina la macha?? Miss you la!!!!.... it is never the same without you. I feel like as if our group is incomplete!!! Chris tried to spill some drink inside my blouse but unfortunately she don’t have any of your skills to accomplish that! I don’t think anyone can tip a beer bottle into someone’s blouse wetting only the bra and not the blouse!!

Sad to say Lacy has been abducted by the aliens and don’t think she is coming back! :o(
She seems to be enjoying the company of the Aliens… miss your dancing Mel… why don’t you take a break and join us?? What you say???

Chris looking stunning as ever… our own Miss IRC JLo…hehehe not Jason Lo ah…. The other JLo!!! She is the sweetest thing in the world and ever so thoughtful.. miss you so much and so nice to hang out with you again. We drank wine and ate sotong rings.. yum yum!!! I love wine…and I didn’t get high at all… yay!!

Hope you guys had a great time… I know I did! I’m so happy to be surrounded by such caring and wonderful people… MUahhhhh!!!

Don't trust em'

Don't trust a man 100%. I’ve heard that so many times in my lifetime.. it goes both ways don't trust a woman 100% too. I guess sometimes when our minds wonders off we tend to confuse ourselves and get easily influenced about our status in the relationship. In the past I had my fair share of being used, cheated and disappointed by my so called ex!... I mean who hasn’t? The worst part is not being honest and open to one another. It makes the relationship even more complicated and normally ends with a broken heart. It takes trust an honesty to build a strong relationship.

Love is something I never gain from any of my past relationships. It’s something I consider very precious and it’s the most wonderful gift anyone could give. I love, trust and respect the person that I am attached to all I ask for is the same in return. I dont think I'll ever find that.. but when I do.. that person is a keeper. I wonder if he exist at least in my head he does.

Car!

My troubles are over… my car is fixed and it didn’t even cost a single cent. The real problem was the tire it self and not the absorber. I’ve been driving through and fro for the past 2 weeks with a lose tire. The loud sound was coming from the tire.. shifting. Did someone unscrew the nuts?? I don’t know for sure.. but Kevin thinks there is a possibility it was… Anyway that nothing bad happen while I was using the car with that lose tire. Still alive and well... let's celebrate!!

worries..

I live by my principals and virtues… I can’t expect people to be like me. Half the time I’m confused and uncertain of myself. I can deal with a problem but I can’t deal with my feelings. It over powers me I’m too sensitive… and can’t control it at times. Recent events only added on my worries, like as if I don’t have enough already. I really feel lost and paranoid that something bad is going to happen to me.. and I don’t care if its just me as long as it doesn’t involve any of my family members. Sometimes I can’t help feeling like I’m mentally torturing myself … my problem is I keep everything to myself and I don’t express myself well enough. It would be easier if everyone are mind readers..

My car again!

My car has been vandalized again.. I really don’t know which idiot is doing all this.. I’m sick and tired of all this nonsense. Over and over again it’s the same thing that’s happening. No one else in my row has this problem accept me.

Lately there are some teenagers hanging out in the playground in front of my house. They will come in the middle of the night with their loud motorcycles and fireworks. Normally Oscar will get very upset and start barking until they go away. I’m not accusing them of vandalizing my car but seriously I don’t know what else to think. They vandalize the playground… I suspect it could be them who vandalize my car.

This morning when I wanted to send my mother to work I noticed that my right hand side back tire, were half flat and the nuts were open. I don’t know if people are trying to steal it or trying to be funny or trying to kill me. Thank my lucky stars I checked the tire before getting in the car and driving off. If that tire would have come off while I was driving… god knows what will happen!

As it is my absorbers are already making funny noises, I can only fix all that when I get my next salary. I’m stuck now and I can’t use my car. Again I have to seek the aid of Kevin to come check and change my tires. He works late… I don’t want to trouble him but I don’t have any other option.

I got my boss to come pick me up this morning and send me for my therapy session with Za after work, Za’s mom sent me back home after the session. I have no choice but to leave my car like that until Friday… that is if Kevin is too busy to help me. I don’t blame him.. He is nice enough to help me out. If I get one of the workshop guys to check the car.. it will probably cost me a bomb and at the moment I’m dead broke….

Why me?? Why does it always have to be me? I think this is the 3rd time already…. *sigh* Have to hitch a ride to work with my boss again… probably have to cancel my session tomorrow. Hope Kevin have time to come and take a look if it’s safe to drive and change my tire. I’ve totally lost my mood today.

Happy Children's Day!

Yesterday after school all the teachers stayed back and wrapped a special gift for the whole school, blew up balloons, decorated the hall area and did our play rehearsal for the children. I sprain my back while clearing some things in the storeroom and lifting some boxes. I felt terrible and I’m in pain… I cancelled my therapy session and stay in bed.

The children came to school all dressed up in their costumes from their concert 2 weeks ago. They danced for all the other classes that didn’t get to watch their performance on that day. There were also other performances like the Belly dancing done by a 10 year old girl, Indian culture show.... an Indian dance performed by our 2 teachers and 2 special guest musicians... they played the Sitar, Violin, Tabla and Madal it was cool!. Then I performed my play with 4 other teachers…. It’s called “Witch Number 5” I was the witch of cause… heheh. The children had a good laugh and they enjoyed the little play we put up for them, I had fun doing it too with my sprain back.. heheh .

As usual after the party the children were so interested to know what’s for lunch!. It was sausages and chips day… heheh their favorite!!! Plus they had ice-cream for dessert!! What a treat…heheh. Some of the parents were nice enough to sponsor some small party gifts, food, Drinks (Ribena) and cake for all the children. The children went home with their hands full of goodies and a “Happy Children’s day” present from the school.

It was a busy… busy day for all the teachers but it was worth it, at the end of the day the children felt appreciated and they went home happily with a big smile on their faces.

Happy children’s Day!

Emotions and Moods

We all have our different moods and emotions. This is what I’m like when I’m emotional or moody!

HAPPY
Basically, I’m always in a good mood and when I’m in a good mood.. I’m a happy person, more energize, confident and have a good sense of humor… Heheh.

What is it that makes me happy??
Hmmm my salary, knowing that there is a holiday coming soon…heheh, a date!, shopping, receiving presents, hanging out with close friends, family and my students.

SAD
I get depressed when I am sad… I don’t sleep, can’t eat, all I want to do is stay in my room and sleep, no mood to go to work or talk to anyone…. I’m very emotional and sensitive about these things. When I’m sad I start to cry… I’ll normally get a fever and I can stay sick for days. I know it’s my own doing… but I can’t help it when I’m sad, it takes a while for me to get over things.

What makes me sad?
Heartaches, break-ups, bad relationships, lies, lost someone dear and misunderstandings.

ANGRY
I’m generally a very nice and calm person by nature. I don't really get angry. I do have a sharp tongue and I will give it straight to your face if I have to. I don't have a temper… I'm not very expressive when it comes to anger.

What makes me angry?
It has a lot to do with people…hehehe.

JEALOUS
I normally don’t envy people for what they have. I’m actually happy with what I’ve got and I’ll work for what I want no problems with that. I prefer to be independent. I do get jealous sometimes only if I see the guy I like flirting with other girls..

How can you tell when I’m jealous?
It’s very obvious, my expressions won’t lie… if I get jealous or feel disrespected in anyway I would normally keep my mouth shut, avoid any eye contact or any contact at all. I do this because I need to secure myself from breaking down into a million pieces. I learn that from experience. When I’m jealous… I loose my mood for everything.

WORRIED
It really can make me loose my focus on things when I’m worried about something. Half the time my mind would be somewhere else. I’ll feel lost and sad.…

What makes me worry?
Work - When I don’t complete my work or have too many things to do and I just can’t cope with it.
Money - especially when I over spend and realize that I’m broke!. I worry about my expenses, car and bill payments.
My family and love ones - I get very worried when they are in need of help and there is nothing I can do to help them!
Future – heh… I worry too much on this topic I don’t even want to think about my future! I’ll have to deal with my present situation first.

So... what's your mood like today?

Back to school again :o)

Ahhhh :o) back to school, the year is coming to and end… the holidays are getting closer ..heheh and so is Christmas!. I have another task, childrens day next week... I have to organise a party and put on a show for them..ehhe. After that I have to focus on the parent’s teachers meeting next month. Yup Yup it's time to update the parents on their childrens progress for the 2nd term, after that it’s time to sit back and relax!

It’s nice to be surrounded with children, I’m so happy to back in the classroom. The weathers pretty bad most of the children are down with cough and cold *poor darlings*. They are so happy to be back in school, I’ve had full attendance so far, 12 of them oh my god!! What a handful they are :o) I had a good day, the children are just great. I cant help thinking how much I’m going to miss them during the school holidays in December. When school resumes they are moving to the next class… so sad :o( I cant hold on to them forever.. heheh. They have to move on!

I’ve been teaching for 4 years now and it has been the best experience EVER!!!

I’m really going to miss the ones leaving the school, J.Riq is leaving for good to Australia end of this month. Yasmin is going to the same school with her brother and all 17 of bigger children going to primary 1 next year….They are my 1st batch of children… I’ve been teaching all of them for year’s, it won’t be the same not having them around ~No more running around screaming and laughing in the playground, no more complaining about the other person, No more arguments~. I hope they remember me as they grow older. Well I know they will do well in their studies and I hope they grow up to be decent human beings, they are the future.

Oh! well, I’ll have the new batch of children coming to my class soon…hehehe. It is my duty to feed them with knowledge…ehehehe. Looking forward to it :o)

Mans best friend.... puppy power!!!

Some people say “Pets resembles the owner” is that true? Heheh.. Well I don’t think Oscar and I are anything alike. He may be a cute dog but ever so annoying. My dog is so vain, I caught him looking at him self in the mirror a few times this week. Today I groomed him and trimmed his fur. He sat down for 1 hour and didn’t even move, he enjoyed it when I brushed his fur. I like that white Fang wolfy look…heheh so cute!

When my sister and her daughter were here they use to put some food on their palm and feed Oscar, he likes the attention and he’ll eat everything and anything you give him. Since my niece went back to Malacca his been a bit of a pain in the ass. He didn’t eat his food that evening, maybe he missed them.. I don’t know. He won’t eat his food unless I feed him like how my niece did it or sit and watch him eat. Past few days I was feeling down for no reason at all, yesterday when I was watching a movie he just jumped on my lap and refused to go down… I just gave in and just let him sit on my lap. I have to admit, he actually made me feel better. Heheh…so manja!! it was cute at first but after awhile my legs were numb. Can you imagine a 15kg dog sitting on your lap?? In the end I just pushed him off my lap and put him out side for awhile until he finish doing his business…heheh. I let him in again around 12.30am he went straight in my room and under the bed to sleep. I continued to watch another movie. Half way watching the movie I felt abit tired, Oscar came out in the hall again and stared at me, I switched off the TV and surprisingly he went back into the room and slept. Hehhe I think he was trying to tell me something there…hehheheh.

Anyway, my mother’s been staying at my Aunties place the whole week. I can tell he misses her because keeps going into her room all the time and waits at the gate around 6pm because that’s the time she usually come home everyday. This afternoon when my mother came home to take something he was so happy to see her he started jumping at her, he wagging his tail so hard, his ears were fold to the backand he was running around like a crazy dog. My mother only stayed for 2 hours and he never left her sight. Even when she went to the toilet he kept scratching the door and waited until he came out. After my mother left he was so sad, he just sat at the gate until he fell asleep. *awwww*

If Oscar can speak I bet he would say what’s on his mind. He has shown more emotion and love then anyone I know. It’s nice to come home after a long day and see you pet so happy to see you, I don’t think any human can show that much appreciation or love after you leave them outside all alone the whole day rain or shine. Truly they are mans best friend :o)

What will i do without my Osky!!! hehehe until my next entry... Adios!

2 days left!

Today was the first day this week I didn’t have to wake up at 8am…hhehhe I had a late therapy session at 1.00pm so I stayed in bed until 11.30am before getting out of bed and into the shower…heheh. Felt so nice :o) I want to do that again tomorrow!.

Hmm let’s see what’s on my “To Do” list for tomorrow, 1st appointment I have to give my aunties dog a bath. She will be coming back from Australia tomorrow evening and finally I can have my mother back…hehehe. I feel so lonely in this empty house with out her.

Looks like I only have 1 thing to do on my list tomorrow…. Yippee!! I dont have any other plans tomorrow, not sure if Azie have anything on. I might go watch a movie but not too sure if I really want to go alone. Maybe watch an earlier show or something. See how that goes la… go out means spend more money... hmmm on second thought i better stay at home!

Aww!! my school holiday is almost up…. I fell like it wasn’t a holiday at all because I was still giving therapy everyday. I have only Saturday and Sunday left. I kept asking myself, where should I go?? What should I do?? What can I do?. I thought about it so much it kept me awake all night. I’m bored and restless. *sigh* I don’t know why but I feel so down these past few days. I’m actually looking forward to going back to work on Monday at least I can entertain my students…heheheh. I hate doing nothing!

I’m a bit tired, I had a long day. I think I will go to sleep early tonight…. Muah!
Thanks for the sms’s Recky and darthvadai it did brighten my day, made hell of a difference :o)

Speak of the Devil!!

Yesterday when I was on the way to pick my sister from Puduraya, I saw Ahmed walking with his Egyptian friend Mohammed. I just looked the other way and just drove pass them.

What a big fat liar he is, he told me he booked his ticket and was going back to Egypt in March. He also said that he is never going to come back here again, he hates living in Malaysia and most of the time he condemns the people here. I don’t think he ever went back to Egypt. He is nothing but a liar. I’m still pissed for what happen to me this year and it’s all because of him. I wonder if he had anything to do with all the stalking that went on and the silent calls. I swear if I ever bump into him I’m going to give it straight to his face. I don’t care because he means nothing to me.

Hate him!!!