Doctors and Medicine

Ok not many people know this about me.. but I’m actually terrified of doctors! Yes!! Im freaking terrified of them!!! I don’t mind being friends or dating them heheh… but .. Hell I wouldn’t want to go see them if I need medical attention.. normally that would be the last thing I do. If I get sick I’ll wait and see if I can get better on my own …

I’m not really sure if it’s a phobia or it’s just my mind playing tricks on me. Well I have had a few bad encounters with doctors before.. and the dentist… ooo the dentist.. I wont even go into that story… , Anyway, I hate medicine especially pills and I CANT stand pain. When ever I get sick… I can be the most difficult person to deal with.. I would normally refuseeeeeeee to see a doctor no matter how bad it was. A few times my mother or my sister had to call some of my friends or ex-boyfriend to talk me into going to the clinic… I get even more sick when I think about seeing a doctor… I normally tell people I went to the clinic but I didn’t… yes.. I lied each time people ask me “Did u see a doctor?”

Here is why I avoid going to the Clinic…
There is always a doctor there!! Duh!!!
The doctors always… I mean ALWAYS gives me an injection on my butt cheek… why me?? Why always on my butt cheek????? Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy???
They prescribe medicine and I hate medicine… and I have to make sure I finish them. Which I normally don’t.
I’ts freaking expensive! And why would I want to waste my money seeing a doctor when I don’t even take his advise or take my medications.

The problem is… I can never take pills without throwing up all over the place… I hate that the most… I really can’t stand it. Each time I throw up I feel like I’m going to die. The pill will never go down!!! Sometimes before trying to attempt to swallow a pill I would take at least 10 to 15 minutes holding the pill and trying to tell myself “ it’s ok… everything is going to be alright” well it never works anyway… I tried smashing the pill into a powder form and mixing it with water or juice… but the taste alone will make me throw up again… *ughh* I must admit that I have been cheating myself… I’ve flushed down antibiotics… hidden them in the trash.. purposely drop them some where and even got a secret hiding place where I hide most of it since I was a child. *wont tell where the hiding place is*

Now lets see… my medical history… I had all the common illnesses as a child and chicken pox 3 times (age 12, 15 and 18). I had an accident when I was 7 years old.. got run over by a motorcycle.. I only suffered the pains when I was 12 years old. My Aunty *my boss* took me to see a doctor and she made an appointment for me to go take an X-ray.. I freaked out and got sick after the x-ray. I went back to the doctor with my x-ray the next day and found out that I actually have hairline fractures on my ribs the tiny bones sticking out, is the one that was causing me all the pain, sometimes small bruises appear all over my body. There was nothing that the doctors can do, accept hope that my ribs will heal itself… I remember the exact words “some pain we just have to live with” of coz she gave me some painkillers but I never took them. Hmm what else…. Oh yeah.. I have a weak back, sinus, migraine and tonsillitis and I'm dying... ok just kidding...

Ok I was referred to a chiropractor by my previous company.. but I never called or made the appointment to see him. I had serious migraine attacks for years, the doctor that was treating me recommended that I see a neurologist .. After he explained what test will be done.. I said “Adios amigos.. I’m out of here!!” I never went to see the neurologist again!. The ENT specialist advised me to get my tonsil removed but I was too scared that it would be a painful procedure so I never took his advise. Oh yea, and my stomach problems… I often had those.. very bad ones in fact.. every one kept pestering me to get a scope done .. go see a doctor.. do something about it.. etc. etc. etc.... *ignored those people* but I later found out that it wasn’t my stomach… I was actually wheat intolerant! So that problem solved!! As long as I don’t eat anything that contains wheat in it… I’ll be fine. Goodbye maggie mee... astalavista whole wheat bread... but I will NOT give up pasta!! even if it kills me....

Recently I was advised that I needed to take some health supplements/ multivitamins. Well after considering that it was for my on good I went to the pharmacy and got some. The 1st thing that went through my mind was “ how the hell am I going to swallow this pill?” unfortunately I said it out loud and the sales girl heard me.. she said “You want in liquid form?” heh.. I told her no.. I rather not taste it… I’ll stick to the pills. Now I’m 28 years old turning 29 very soon…. well actually another 2 days to be exact.. Anyway, I never took any multivitamins before.. so I look at the tablet and I keep thinking… “how am I going to get this down??” I broke it into half.. and it still look big… I broke it into 4 portions… and couldn’t break it anymore… I took a piece of banana and swallowed it bit by bit. After 1 month I can now take have a pill without a banana.. hah! There’s progress!!! But I always have something sweet to kill the taste in case I feel like vomiting.

Ok since I started going to the gym again.. and this time being more serious with my workout and actually carrying weights, I am now on a high protein diet.. so have to make sure I get enough protein .. got some other vitamins from GNC too.

Now I’m suppose to take this multi vitamin twice a day, one after breakfast and one in the afternoon. I tried that today.. it took me 5 minutes to actually pop it into my mouth.. I quickly drank water and tried to swallow it.. but the capsule just floated in my mouth and I almost choked on it… ok fine!!! Try again for the 2nd time…. I pop it back into my mouth and drank some more water… it went down… Yay!!! But it came back out immediately… god!! I felt like dying… I washed the capsule.. it was all soft and sticky.. I popped it in my mouth again and just drank my water … I kept on drinking until I forgot about the pill… finally it went down! Hoorayyyyyyyy!!! I felt like I just given birth… after that I had something to eat and I was ok…. 2nd pill was easy.. I already know if I drown myself by drinking water the pill will eventually go down… so that’s what I did… I got my water bottle ready .. I have 1000ml of water… nothing can go wrong now… pop 1 capsule in my mouth and just drank the water… I was like I was in a water drinking competition… I almost finished all of it… and manage to get it down… by the time I was done.. I felt so full I wasn’t hungry anymore… drats!! I ate half my lunch… oh well… I’ll just have to get use to taking pills… I don’t know why it keeps coming out.. I hate when that happens. Now I have to go through the same shit again tomorrow.. somebody just kill me!