I have to let it go!

A lot of us tend to hold on to the past... it's not a bad thing really. It's a constant reminder of who we once were and how we see ourselves now and what we want to be in the future... but somethings we just have to let go and accept the fact that we shouldn't hope so much especially for the things we can never have.

I ask myself what can I keep? and what can I let go?.
Well... I can keep my memories! I have so many good memories and bad ones. I don't think I can forget even if I tried and I've said that many times before. What I need to let go is my feelings associated with those memories...

I am in the process of turning my life around, and that also means I am ready to change again. I will change for the better of coz and making changes does require alot of work, I know that because all I do is change everytime something drastic happens in my life.. It's actually very depressing... I often wish I was somebody else or didn't exist at all. Truth is... I honestly don't know who I am anymore.

I need to focus and my mind needs to be clear. My feelings and emotions is the only thing that is holding me back. So what can I do? knowing me .. I will do absolutely nothing.. but I can't keep doing that.. my mind is clouded right now because of the feelings I have... I have to let it go!